The chief enemy of creativity is good sense.
I knew this would happen.
I was meant to be working a decent, part-time (i.e. maximum three-day-a-week) job which would give me time to focus upon writing, writing, writing for the other two days plus weekends when I could (i.e. so I don’t become a friendless hermit or cat-lady, minus the cats but with the isolated-craziness thing going on – I’m not allowed pets in my apartment but that’s another story, another blog, another day) …
This is not quite happening.
My three days often magically turned into five. Just like that!
Now I am signed up for four days a week. Sometimes five. Then I can negotiate a day-in-lieu. So maybe some weeks I can work three. But the usual will be four. Unless there is a show on or an important meeting. Then it is definitely five. But I’m only paid for four. But a day off can be negotiated so long as it isn’t for a day off when there is a show on or an important meeting. But most days. They’re flexible. To a point.
Confused? Me too.
I thought I would manage.
One of my colleagues told me it wouldn’t work – “It’s a creative process,” he said. “You need time.”
Yes. That would be nice but I’m not Jane frickin Austen (apologies to Ms Austen – I know you didn’t have a middle name and probably would not appreciate being given that one in particular) – I don’t have the luxury of time or a handsome trust account.
I have to Pay Rent / Buy food / Live (not necessarily in that order).
So, whilst I have been outwardly dismissing my colleague’s comments as completely and utterly wrong, inwardly I am thinking he might be right. There is a lot of pressure to get writing done when you only have limited time in which to do it: pressure trumps creativity.
Maybe the reverse is true also; you make more of your time when you have less of it.
Or, in my case, you just freak out at the pressure of getting something done today and the pressure manifests into self-doubt and anxiety and youtube and Not Getting Anything Done.
So, here is my “list of ways to counteract feelings of creative stagnation when faced with a regular job that sucks all your time and energy” [working title]
- Carry a pen and a pad of paper EVERYWHERE (um, okay, maybe not everywhere – everywhere, but you know, within reason) and write whenever anything is sparked.
- Write something everyday. Be that mysterious person in the cafeteria at work who is scribbling away in their notebook (so long as you do look mysterious and interesting rather than creepy and homicidal). Write any length / style / form; just do it everyday. Does a shopping list count? Hell yeah. Here’s my list for today:
(Riveting stuff there, I know … But one day it could be gold, you never know what I have to pick up from the store – stay tuned!)
- Keep blogging
- READ – READ – READ – never stop reading!
- You don’t have to finish but you have to at least make a start …
- Prove your smart-arse colleague WRONG